Running towards something…

The good knitting news is that I became #180 in the 1000 Knitters Project:

The bad knitting news is that I’m going to have to frog my Jaywalker Anklet:

I turned the heel, all was going seemingly well when I realized I was skipping a step.  Upon further inspection of the pattern, I had screwed up the zig-zag part as well - The zig-zag is supposed to be done in two steps: knit around once, then knit the steps to make the zig zag - these are repeated until it’s however long you want it to be.  I skipped the knit around each row part, which might explain why the darn thing is so tight.

Frug.  Frog.

I wish I could make the big giant post that says, “I’ve got a job!”, but alas… I don’t.   This is eerily becoming similar to last year at this time, except by now last year I was at least working a temp gig and had money coming in weekly. 

I have been  interviewing QUITE a bit lately, and have another second interview next week.   I’m up against a bunch of people for that position (It’s an admin one, not really design at all) so who knows… Tomorrow I’ve got an interview with a rather big-name company, and to make things even more positive, I know some of the products they sell… to design with them would be nice for my resume as well as my ego.

I’m having friends over tomorrow for a DVD preview party (I won a DVD, with the agreement that I’d have my friends over to watch it, and take some photos) and at the same time we’re going to carve some pumpkins.  The weather finally went from the high 80’s to mid-low 60’s  this week and I’m totally feeling the urge to take advantage of Autumn while its here.

I leave you with your own little preview of the DVD my friends and I will be watching tomorrow.  It’s Dar Williams, the DVD is called Live at the Bearsville Theater, and the song is The Christians and the Pagans:

The Cubs start the Playoffs tonight.

I’ve also heard that a pig was seen preparing for take-off from the Sears Tower, and Hell is experiencing record cold temperatures.

Perhaps this means a job for me is in the near future as well??

(Let the record state, I am SO rooting for the Cubs, despite my sarcasm of this post.)

So, I have a meeting with another temp agency in the morning (for those of you at home keeping score, it has been 2 months since I’ve had a job), but as all these thoughts run through my head while I try to sleep, I feel like I need to get this one on screen.

This may not be the smartest plan ever, but right now, it seems to make the most sense to me.

Money is a HUGE source of my headaches.  I don’t keep track of it, and I’m constantly worried about how I’m going to pay off this assorted debts I have.  I mentioned to my friend G tonight that more than once the thought of filing for bankruptcy has entered my mind, but do I want to give up?  No.  Do I need to feel like a failure? Absolutely no.

So my thought is this:

My major bills: rent, cell, electric, cable, and my student loan… those are, without a doubt, necessary. 

The credit card debt I’ve racked up?  Foolish.  Stupid.  Inane.

But, debt none the less.  And debt I plan on paying.  But I’m going to stop looking at it as this huge chunk of money people want from me and break it down into manageable pieces.  I know my credit is, pardon the term, fucked right now… A couple of these have gone into collections, and despite my efforts to explain my situation, they call daily.  But if I’d just look at them individually and be like - OK.. right now I’m focusing on CreditCardX which has a balance of 1K… If I threw the extra money I had monthly (assuming I have a job of course and I’m not living off my miserable unemployment money (not that I’m not thankful for unemployment, but it barely covers rent)) towards this 1K, and this 1K only… I could get it paid off in 2, 3 months tops.  Then, move on to the next card.

I think if I looked at my cards this way - one at a time - I could get everything paid off and cleared up in a matter of a year or two.  NOT the 7 or so it would take a bankruptcy to get off my record. 

Sure, it might take 7 years til creditors could trust me to buy a house or something… but at least I’ve made the effort to pay the debts I’ve racked up, and not just given up - because honestly I feel like if I personally filed bankruptcy, that would be a big white flag.

I’m opening this up for thoughts, comments, and suggestions- should you have a better idea.