Running towards something…

I changed my cell phone number today for 2 reasons:

#1: I’m tired of 80% of my calls being from bill collectors.  I’ve got the intentions to pay them back, I just don’t have the funds for it right now.  If I hadn’t of had the Florida trip, I’d actually be paying my May rent on May first, but alas, it will be April rent.

#2: Even though it’s been close to 2 years since his number has been programmed in my phone, I still remember my ex’s phone number because it was only one digit off from mine.  This, in combination with letting the ghost of our relationship haunt me all weekend in Florida, lead me to an instance of drunken texting (to which, thankfully, there was no reply.)

Here’s the thing, and I’ve probably said this before: My ex gave me the greatest gift he ever could have - my education.  Without his support I wouldn’t have been able to go to school full time and only work part-time.  The start of my career path?  Yeah… he helped guide the way.  But here’s the thing: I cannot allow him to infect my thoughts the way he does any longer.  I do not OWE him for what he gave me.  The things he did to me, and the things he took from me emotionally?  Payment.  In full.  Cross that debt off my list.

The career is mine.  The path might have been started by him, but it’s mine to pave.   The further away I can move from him and his ghost, the better the walk - hell, maybe even the RUN down this path might be.