Archive for September, 2008

Workin’ for the weekend

Due to financial constraints, I have a very low-key weekend planned.  I was to go to Lake Villa and attend a party, but since I don’t think I can even afford the Metra fare up there…  it’s unlikely.

Anyhow, my glamorous[1] weekend will start tonight where I will hopefully do my dishes and perhaps attempt to make what looks like a yummy WW recipe for stuffed clams.  I will also watch the presidential debate, hope McCain makes an ass of himself, and continue to knit a square for a group blanket project (I got crazy ambitious and decided to make one of my squares in a very complicated cable pattern (September is for Antony).   It’s beautiful, but who on earth has the patience to make this into a scarf??)

I have about 15 episodes of 90210 to catch up on, last week’s X and Xtra Factor (plus this week’s, if they are uploaded on time), Oprah from yesterday (which I hear had Jen Lancaster on it!) and.. I guess that’s it for TV.

I will also be checking up on a fellow knitting gal’s kitty on Saturday, which I have every intention of walking to her place – which is about a mile and a half away.  We’ll see if that happens – it SHOULD happen, because I have little in the way of bus fare.

Other than that, the normal stuff needs to happen – there’s laundry to do… there’s kitty litter to change… There’s 100 more pages of the second Twilight that I keep saying I will read and have not yet!

Oh, but what I really, REALLY want to make an effort to do is meditate.  I purchased a cd for guided meditation while I was down in Florida and I have yet to actually use it.  The medium who read me said I would benefit from it, and actually I’ve had doctors tell me it might help reduce the severity of my panic attacks. 

Anyhow, hope everyone else has lovely plans for this weekend…  Looks like here in Chi-town, this might be our last shot at “summer” weather.

[1]Am I the only one who, when they spell out glamorous, I do it to the tune of Fergie? G. L. A. M. O. R. OUS – yeah… Flying first class… up in the sky…

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Every dream, is just a dream, afterall.

McDreamy and McSteamy will grace my television tonight with new episodes of a new season. 

I’ve budgeted in points so I can have a glass of wine while watching.

I’ve got yummy yarn to work on a group project to keep me occupied during commercials.

I’m at a great part in the second Twilight Book that I could devour the rest of it in a little over an hour (before all the McWatching).

 

And yet today, all I want to do is curl into a ball and cry.  

Sigh.

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giggle *snort*

I love moments where I laugh so hard it hurts, or I cry, or I snort.

This latest one came as I was minding my own business, plugging away in AutoCAD when all of a sudden a stress ball came bouncing off my overhead bin and onto my desk.  I let out a, “Jesus Christ!” and then proceeded to start laughing.  I walked over to my coworker who heard me and was laughing just as hard herself.   When she caught her breath she asked if I got her email… I said, “Uhm… no..”  and giggled my way back to my desk.

When I got back to my desk I saw the email – “Subject:HEADS UP!!!!!!!!”

teehee!

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Well THAT explains alot…

I did some math in my head yesterday and realized where my “mood” as of late as come from.  

Two words: Pent Up.

Yep.  It explains so much!  It would be better if I had just forgotten when the last time I had sex was, but instead, the date is now etched in my mind and I’m obsessing about it.

Not to the point where I’m going to go have random what-not, but still…

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Are you listening?

I am longing to be in love.

There.  I said it.

Come on, universe… throw someone good at me.  I’m convinced my soulmate (if there is such a thing) is not sitting out there on match.com or eharmony or any of those sites.  He’s not some former lover who I look at through rose-colored glasses. 

I wish I knew where the heck he was because everyone keeps telling me to stop looking for him and he’ll find me.  What if people are telling him to stop looking too?

Hear me
I’m cryin’ out
I’m ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me

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This is to make my weekly quota – I admit it.

My mind is moving in a rapid succession of single, yet some very important, thoughts:

  • Need to look into Step class for NCIDQ
  • Should I go for my Master’s Degree?
  • Need to book a flight for Christmas
  • I think it’s time we went on a break
  • I’m still sore from being on a flying trapeze
  • I should of had breakfast
  • I can’t stop touching my straight hair
  • What if I did IIT instead of UIC for their Master’s program?
  • What if I found a school in Mass for my Master’s program?
  • I need to get back to knitting my socks
  • I hope I am able to get a seat at the concert tonight
  • I hope I get to meet Dar after the show tonight
  • I need to remember my camera
  • What if I don’t pass the NCIDQ on the first try?
  • Have to grocery shop tomorrow for sure
  • I really need a nap
  • I wonder if my fall swap partner will get her package today
  • I wonder when I’ll get my fall swap package – a yarn surprise would be so welcome today
  • I want to buy all the yarn in the world, but I never make the time to knit
  • I will finish the second Twilight series book this weekend

Exciting stuff, eh?

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Sappy music

You know, there is crap on my ipod that I am not sure why it is still there because it was music that I acquired from the ex’s tastes (very emo.. ugh), but then there’s other stuff from that same time that I run across from time to time and wonder why the heck I don’t have more of this in heavier rotation.

Today, it’s The Anniversary – The D in Detroit:

Feeling the time peel away at my life again.
As memories combine, not sure where I’ve ever been.
‘Cause it’s the D in Detroit which scares me to no end. I’ll count to ten.
When living this down makes so much sense.

We collide – and onward we do fly
We collide – and onward we do fly
Onward – until we hit again.

I kept your picture just behind the eye - those weeks when our distance grew.
Drove north where I found you waiting in Des Moines – thank God I’m not losing you.
And girl I hope you’re not alone – and sleep through this weather.
And girl I hope you’re whole again – back home we’ll sleep better.

In other news, I can’t decide if I want to fork over the money for a ticket to go see Dar Williams and Shawn Mullens or not.  I’m therefore listening to a LOT of Dar today to help me decide (that is, when I’m not running into stuff like The Anniversary.

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A lot can happen in a week

I looked at the calendar today and noticed there is exactly one week left of summer.  I noticed some of the trees were starting to change colors last week, and the weather is certainly cooler – I just, for some reason, am not ready for the official declaration of it being autumn and no longer being summer – or maybe I am.

I think much of it has to do with this spring/summer being one of the best since I moved to the city – remember last year when I was almost wishing not to have a job so I could take advantage of all Chicago had to offer int he summer and then I did lose my job and it sucked?  Well, this year has proved that I can in fact have my cake (job) and eat all the good Chicago-ness too!  Let’s take a look at what good times were had, shall we?

In April I got to go to Florida for the first time in 4 years.  I spent time with Ginny, went downtown.  I spent time with Josh, went to the beach.  I drove down A1A through Cape Canaveral and saw the house my mom and I rented once upon a time on the beach.

In May I met Jen Lancaster at a book signing (ok, “met” is a strong word…  I got my picture taken with her (said photo will be used as a good ‘before’ photo when I lose a bunch of weight)).  Andi graduated and had a birthday which meant dinner with her family and drinks with the gals from knitting group.  We also met Jemaine and Bret after the Flight of the Conchords show (2 more pics also for the before book) and I won tickets to see KT Tunstall – again.  Beth had a birthday at the end of the month and she and I had AWESOME seats to Avenue Q!  We chugged champagne before walking in the theater to see naked puppets.  Our knitting group also had the first of the BBQ’s at Beth’s place on Memorial Day.

June had some mixed feelings, but from the bad came some good.  Elizabeth had a birthday bowling party which was pretty darn fun and a few days later I got my first and only spinning lesson (spinning as in spinning yarn).  I was in a “mood” when I was with the girls, and 2 days later my mood worsened when my great aunt passed.  The good of her passing was that she did not suffer and I’m sure she’s happy to be reunited with her husband.  I also got to go see my family back east and though it was rough circumstances, it was still very good to see them.  Playing cards with my aunt, uncle and cousin still sticks out in my mind as one of the more fond memories of the week.  Neocon was also this month and despite ending a friendship after having the liquid courage of free martini’s, the martini’s were still a plus for the month!

In July we had our second BBQ at Beth’s for the 4th and then Chicago Summer Dance started.  Adrienne and I spent quite a few weekends down in Grant Park learning how to do various dances.  One of the better nights of dancing also involved us catching the fireworks from Venetian Night and ending up at the Intercontinental Hotel where we had the best Creme Brulee ever.   Jody and I took a Monday off from our respective jobs and went to Hurricane Harbor at Six Flags.  I still give her a little grief for not braving any of the slides with me, but we still had a great day on the Lazy River and the wave pool. 

August started with Lollapalooza.  I still say I’m unsure if I’ll go again next year, but I’m sure come April ‘09 I’ll be buying a ticket for it anyhow.  Just before Lolla, I met Matt, which brought along some interesting dates/hanging out times throughout the month.  Even though he’s lived in/around the city all his life, we’ve still managed to go to places that are new to both of us.  We attempted to watch Blues Brothers during the movies in Grant Park, but we got rained out!  Boo!  I also fufilled a 4-year wish to be in a sailboat on Lake Michigan during August!  Next year I want to see if I can get in with a crew and learn how to SAIL the boat – riding is one thing, but the whole process of throwing the sale up and steering just looks like so much fun!

And this month.. Well, I went back to Florida and instead of running around to see EVERYONE I hadn’t seen in 4 years I instead planned on seeing only Ginny and Josh.  I was lucky to see Kristin too, and to go to Cassadaga to get a reading.  I went to the beach again and helped Josh shop for some stuff for his new place.  I treasure tete-a-tete time with Josh – it should happen more often.  I gave blood for the first time in my life last week (and my arm is still sore from it).  Over this past weekend Matt and I shared a 100$ wine flight that included wines from 1960-something and 1908!  This week we’re going to go see Batman on the Imax screen and Wednesday we’re having our first (and perhaps only) flying trapeze lesson.   I’ll be going back on the Points system for real (thanks to Jody joining it too – personal support rocks!) and I think on Friday I’m going to go to a Dar Williams concert on my own. 

And then it’ll be the weekend and Monday it will be fall.  And I’ll be ok with it because, well, that was one hell of a summer… but next year’s will be even better, right?

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Watch your language.

I had a minor blow-out with a friend of mine the other day after he discussed hanging out with me in his blog and used the words “baby-sitting” and “burden” in the same breath.  To people who don’t understand him, this makes me sound like the wicked bitch of the midwest.  To people who do understand him and know how he talks – the fact that he brought me up at all and decided to insult me is his way of showing he cares. 

He even went so far, in our arguement, to point out that one of his ‘memorable posts’ is entitled, “Angela is Awesome”.  I went back and re-read it last night and it was nothing but compliments and nice things to say about the bond he and I have.  (Which, if we’re going by the whole he insults because he cares makes me ponder what it means when he compliments for real, but I digress.)

The thing is, not many people get it: our friendship, that is.  Many a girlfriend of his has felt ill will towards me for some reason or another.  I won’t speculate the reasons for it, but it’s actually caused times where he and I have either had to talk in secret or just not talk at all.   (For what it’s worth, we’re both old enough to not talk in secret anymore – that bit happened a long time ago.)

Anyhow, the whole point is, 15 years later, I’m still trying to figure out his language and not take things personally when he uses terms that to the outside world may seem harsh.  I *know* he and I have this weird cosmic friendship bond that isn’t going anywhere.  I *know* he didn’t see our weekend as a burden, or look at it as baby-sitting… and if the rest of the world doesn’t get it?  Well… it’s not my place to try to explain.

 

In case you can’t read my writing:

He: “See? You wanna fight.  It’s a sickness, really.”

Me: “You are my sickness.  An incurable disease that won’t go away with antibiotics.  I’d rather have you than AIDS.  You should take that as a compliment.”

Fighting with him strengthens our friendship.  A pox on anyone who thinks what he and I have is anything more.

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Too much Twilight

Maybe I’ve been reading Twilight too much, because I just willingly walked into the Vampire’s Den:

 

The first time I ever tried to give blood, in Florida, they couldn’t find a good vein on me.  The second time, up here at work, my iron level was too low.  Today I almost didn’t make it to the chair because my temp was 99.6 and the max it can be is 99.5, but the technician let me sit for 15 minutes, took it again and somehow I was down to 98.6. 

Anyhow, I’ve got a big boo-boo-band-aid on my arm and this snazzy little sticker (which is facing the right way, just not when captured by a cell phone.)

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